i thought i'd lost my drawings...

...but, luckily after some searching, i found em. Phew! I've not been able to do much sketching this week due to one thing or another, but i'm going to try and get back to it this week sometime. Either the pen, or the paints. I've been meaning to get around to painting things, but of course i get sidetracked by other ideas that i feel are important, like writing a thousand words or walking ten thousand steps in a week. I'm going to try to do it. How hard can it be? I need one of those clicky counter things. I tried counting my steps to myself, but i had to keep starting over because of interruptions and distractions, my poor memory adds to the nightmare. I think i'm going to 'Get back to black' with my picture stuff, i'm not sure that i want to continue with colour, not so sure that it enhances or compliments them, so i'll give it a rest for a while...prepare for darkness and gloom!

confusion is overtaking...

...i am completely lost! I haven't got a clue what i'm doing, and its getting worse, rapidly. I'm hoping the situation takes a turn for the better, i think it may be around the corner, but i have been wrong many, many, times before. I'm still churning out the pics though, i'll call it the confusion phase i think. Its sunny!

tiredness is becoming annoying...

my weekend hasn't been great, but there is always tomorrow to look forward to, i can kind of guess what'll be happening, i think its called being knackered! I could try and complete another drawing, to try and keep myself half awake i suppose, we'll see what happens. These are my latest creations, and none of them are portraits. I don't think i'll ever be a portrait artist, i would never be flattering, i tend to squeeze out some kind of unhealthy aspect to a person, a menacing grin or large nostrils or excessive hair, its just something i feel i need to do...its got to have some form of uglyness attached to it. That really makes my day. No, i won't apologise! :)

when you get older your body begins to fall apart...

...the artist R B Kitaj once said that, and it is SO true. I don't feel too bad myself, but today i've witnessed what other people have to put up with and it is very scary. I suppose the last few weeks have been a real eye opener, but then again, all this was evident from many years ago, its just that now its all much more worrying. I should be thinking about something else.

where is it coming from...

...tell me.

if its not one thing...

...its another! They are digging up the roads and halting transport services...its all really beginning to interfere with my schedule! The roads are very busy too and the hot weather doesn't lessen the stress levels either. I'm loving it though! I'm taking things slowly, it seems the most sensible way to go. Being sensible is hard to focus on, when you spend most of your life being a joker, i'll give it a good try though! I think i'm going to really start painting soon and also attempt some wallpaper pictures, that should drag me back in to the realms of foolishness. Ha, ha. We want rain and lightning and thunder, yes we do!. :)

the names on...

the little tabs on these pics are old familiar streets i used to knockabout on years ago. Some of them don't exist anymore and others have completely transformed, some would say; for the better! This weather is nice, six or seven days of sunny blue sky and the occasional afternoon of rain, i like it a lot. Have got painting to do today, and i want to make these sketchy things more sketchy! Less colour, more whiteness and maybe charcoal or pencil. This is a note to self!

Isn't there a law...

...that can stop the bnp gimps from getting into Manchester town hall? I saw it on tv last night it was horrific. It looked like all the decent people exited the building and refused to acknowledge the outcome. It was a terrible result but these evil people will never prosper. I was a bit disturbed by all the scare-mongering stories of doom before the vote, because the likelyhood of these wretches gaining a foothold in politics is very slim, so i was never worried. After seeing this bilge on tv though, my stomach feels sick. I half expected all this; the far right anger vote, it happens a lot, especially during testing economic times. These morons always seem to get a bit of exposure as a result of public apathy/annoyance, let's hope it stops there. It looks like the sale of rotten eggs will sky-rocket in anticipation of further public appearances by this lot, think i'm going to join the queue for eggs!

being forgetful is easy...

...remembering is the hard bit! I've not been too bad lately though, nothing of major importance has cropped up, so there was nothing i had to think about. I seem to be doing 'spots' a lot more lately, makes a change from seeing them before my eyes in real life i s'pose. Think i need to draw for a bit, i'm lost for words at the moment with no inspiration, the brain needs oiling. More later...

i think i saw the person...

...who pinched my drawings a while back, but what can i do? I can't demand them back, i need proof of the act. Never mind. Well it looks like the politicians in this country have really gone and annoyed us far too much now. Its very funny seeing them try to squirm out of their positions and almost everybody is apologising, The world has truly gone mad. Its going to be a difficult one for people to decide who to vote for now, maybe we'll all just stay at home that day and refuse to vote. It could backfire and the complete undesirables might gain a few seats. That would be horribly catastrophic. I will vote, have to deal with my conscience...its going to be very interesting.

Happy Mothers Day...again!

Can't hang about here, just thought i'd post the picture, its the only paper thing other than doodles that i've done this weekend. I've been on the pc to long, but i've had time to do some painting as well. Its all really messy and weird in a menacing kind of way, the painting i mean. Its given me a plan for future stuff, but as usual if it materialises that'd be great, but usually it doesn't. Happy Mum's day everybody.

this season i'm going to be wearing...

...lots of grey! If its not grey or black then i'll be naked, its the only way to be. No, no, only joking. I've almost stopped sneezing, so i'm guessing i've not contracted swine flu...phew, close shave, maybe. I'm still making drawings almost everyday, i'm only posting a few of them though. its getting a bit much putting all of them up, i'm trying to be selective, but not in a sensible way. I like to post the pictures i'm not keen on as well as my favourites, probably just to see what they look like on the web! Got to draw now, so off i go. More sun and rain please!

more people...

...are liking my arty stuff, they have not resorted to stealing it yet though! They've not bothered to purchase it either, but as usual, i ain't holding my breath...i may as well go snorkelling without the equipment, i think that would be more productive! Trying to be less colourful with my pictures at the moment, i've gone a bit crazy with the pc art packages, so i'm trying to make them paler, just like me! I am bored so i'm going out to draw things, hopefully it will be inspiringly creative and intelligent. If not, it'll just be a doodle with a line of words!

quick, call the cops...

I can't believe it at all. I had 4 promising drawings on the go last night and somebody nicked them! I don't know if the person had been watching me, or if it was just an opportunist moment, but i got back and they had gone! Now, i don't know if my arty stuff is collectable or worth anything, but i'm still a bit puzzled as to why someone would take the risk of getting caught pinching them! I have 2 suspects, but not much chance of bumping into them again though. I do feel like i'll have to start all over again, which is weird because i do start new pics almost every day, so i shouldn't feel any different. To tell the truth though, they weren't up to much, they needed a bit more work, then they would've been pretty!

weird weekend, it isn't pleasing

i know the world is a strange place, but its just as strange, if not stranger on my own doorstep. After saying that though, there are some people who make the world easier to take and can bring a smile back to my face. Its usually the older, wiser folks who tend to have an inspiring effect on me. You know the scene, when you feel like an outsider in a strange place, and people are trying to work you out? It can be scary, and it was for me, but i was helped by a friendly person and things worked out fine. The madness of the evening though did continue for a while longer at another location. Younger folks this time, but i still don't know if i'm surprised by it or should've expected it. I'm still smiling, and the future should clarify things in this situation, surely it can't get more confusing, can it? I'm sorry i cannot say anymore, but this has to remain quiet. I know i am a pain, i really do know it!

right, i really must get my act together...

what i'm talking about is, me trying to be more productive with the things that are on my list. These things don't seem to be getting done and the list gets longer. Its not a list of household stuff, it's just arty things i always promised to try, but have not got around to producing. I know i'll be doing a bit of painting tonight, it was either that or 'Kloot', but i'm too tired to travel and i'm still in pain from my visit to the dentist, which was not as financially painful as i expected. In fact it wasn't painful at all, but still, i'm staying here to paint. I don't seem to be drawing anything that i use on a larger scale. It just seems, i potter about with it on the pc, add colour, then post it on the web. I did have a plan to draw stuff for larger pieces of work, but as yet hasn't materialised, might tonight tho! Maybe i can upload the big stuff as block drawings, then each one can be downloaded as block posters...i think that would be a terrible waste of good paper! I won't be doing that. :)

sometimes drawing gets me SO fed up...

...but not today! Yesterday was a bit of a bore, but i worked on the pics a little more, now i like them, i'm sure the feeling won't last for long. I've been trying to get to grips with Facebook, i know it'll be like crossing over to the bad side, but i think its inevitable really. Friends are there not here, plus the fact there are some really dodgy photos of me knocking about on those pages and i want to see them. I'm also trying to change my main web page, i've got this little animation thing i want to put on it(not cheesy honest) but its not too easy if i want to do it the cheap way, but i'm sure if i concentrate for more than the usual 5 minutes i'll get somewhere. This picture was drawn over a copy of the last picture, but i don't think it shows really. I'm starting to get the weird looks now you know? I'll tell you about it sometime.

this is the one...

...i finished on sunday. They are getting better but its funny how i can forget to do simple things that were really easy last month, its like i'm not concentrating enough!
Do you agree or disagree that we don't say 'thank you' enough? I've been trying to appreciate things a lot more, i'm trying to not concentrate on what i don't have, but to celebrate the things i do have. I've been doing this for ages, but now and again there is nothing like a good moan about stuff, because we all know how hard it is to stay hyper-positive day to day. Rant, rant... I know, i'm only writing this so it goes into my thick skull more easily, i'm hoping it helps me to visualise more positive things. I'll let you know this time next year if it works!

who cares that it makes showers?

my interests seem to lie in making things pale these days, i'm not feeling inspired by colour lately. It's like my guitar practice. Some days i can play away for ages, other days i could throw it out the window! I dunno how these music people do it, its a gift i suppose. Have you got any old furniture that you don't want? I'm not talking about old settee's or radiograms, but wooden chairs and tables. I'm currently hooked on recycling old stuff, while trying to perfect or discover my joinery skills. Some tools would be good i suppose, so i think i'll have to start to invest before i get too optomysterious. Yeah, thats right, i'm inventing my own words now...

don't objectify me, oh, go on then...

Why have i suddenly got a fetish for ballerinas? Its not one of those 'unhealthy' fetishes, don't worry! No, its just become apparent to me over the new year. Firstly, i blame the ballerina tv show broadcast on the BBC, over the christmas (incarceration) period i went through. It was a really nice drama thing, but obviously, very christmassy with the typical happy ending. That's sign 1, the 2nd is a tune i've been listening to over the last couple of months, 'Ballerina' by the best band in the world, GMPD is the name and all their songs are inspired brilliance. So that is now contributing to the evidence my rickety head is struggling to cope with. Sign 3...is there a sign 3? Yes, i just got it, its a myspace site. The site is full of wonderful photography of broken dolls, and other things, some of which resemble ballerina's, i knew it was something else. P.S. I can't believe i've written a post containing the word Ballerina 4 times! If you want to find the 'doll site'(its French in origin!) you will have to check out my page at myspace, so click the pink phone picture and it'll take you there. In the meantime, let's all hold hands and contact the living! :P