more people...

...are liking my arty stuff, they have not resorted to stealing it yet though! They've not bothered to purchase it either, but as usual, i ain't holding my breath...i may as well go snorkelling without the equipment, i think that would be more productive! Trying to be less colourful with my pictures at the moment, i've gone a bit crazy with the pc art packages, so i'm trying to make them paler, just like me! I am bored so i'm going out to draw things, hopefully it will be inspiringly creative and intelligent. If not, it'll just be a doodle with a line of words!

quick, call the cops...

I can't believe it at all. I had 4 promising drawings on the go last night and somebody nicked them! I don't know if the person had been watching me, or if it was just an opportunist moment, but i got back and they had gone! Now, i don't know if my arty stuff is collectable or worth anything, but i'm still a bit puzzled as to why someone would take the risk of getting caught pinching them! I have 2 suspects, but not much chance of bumping into them again though. I do feel like i'll have to start all over again, which is weird because i do start new pics almost every day, so i shouldn't feel any different. To tell the truth though, they weren't up to much, they needed a bit more work, then they would've been pretty!

weird weekend, it isn't pleasing

i know the world is a strange place, but its just as strange, if not stranger on my own doorstep. After saying that though, there are some people who make the world easier to take and can bring a smile back to my face. Its usually the older, wiser folks who tend to have an inspiring effect on me. You know the scene, when you feel like an outsider in a strange place, and people are trying to work you out? It can be scary, and it was for me, but i was helped by a friendly person and things worked out fine. The madness of the evening though did continue for a while longer at another location. Younger folks this time, but i still don't know if i'm surprised by it or should've expected it. I'm still smiling, and the future should clarify things in this situation, surely it can't get more confusing, can it? I'm sorry i cannot say anymore, but this has to remain quiet. I know i am a pain, i really do know it!

right, i really must get my act together...

what i'm talking about is, me trying to be more productive with the things that are on my list. These things don't seem to be getting done and the list gets longer. Its not a list of household stuff, it's just arty things i always promised to try, but have not got around to producing. I know i'll be doing a bit of painting tonight, it was either that or 'Kloot', but i'm too tired to travel and i'm still in pain from my visit to the dentist, which was not as financially painful as i expected. In fact it wasn't painful at all, but still, i'm staying here to paint. I don't seem to be drawing anything that i use on a larger scale. It just seems, i potter about with it on the pc, add colour, then post it on the web. I did have a plan to draw stuff for larger pieces of work, but as yet hasn't materialised, might tonight tho! Maybe i can upload the big stuff as block drawings, then each one can be downloaded as block posters...i think that would be a terrible waste of good paper! I won't be doing that. :)

sometimes drawing gets me SO fed up...

...but not today! Yesterday was a bit of a bore, but i worked on the pics a little more, now i like them, i'm sure the feeling won't last for long. I've been trying to get to grips with Facebook, i know it'll be like crossing over to the bad side, but i think its inevitable really. Friends are there not here, plus the fact there are some really dodgy photos of me knocking about on those pages and i want to see them. I'm also trying to change my main web page, i've got this little animation thing i want to put on it(not cheesy honest) but its not too easy if i want to do it the cheap way, but i'm sure if i concentrate for more than the usual 5 minutes i'll get somewhere. This picture was drawn over a copy of the last picture, but i don't think it shows really. I'm starting to get the weird looks now you know? I'll tell you about it sometime.

this is the one...

...i finished on sunday. They are getting better but its funny how i can forget to do simple things that were really easy last month, its like i'm not concentrating enough!
Do you agree or disagree that we don't say 'thank you' enough? I've been trying to appreciate things a lot more, i'm trying to not concentrate on what i don't have, but to celebrate the things i do have. I've been doing this for ages, but now and again there is nothing like a good moan about stuff, because we all know how hard it is to stay hyper-positive day to day. Rant, rant... I know, i'm only writing this so it goes into my thick skull more easily, i'm hoping it helps me to visualise more positive things. I'll let you know this time next year if it works!

who cares that it makes showers?

my interests seem to lie in making things pale these days, i'm not feeling inspired by colour lately. It's like my guitar practice. Some days i can play away for ages, other days i could throw it out the window! I dunno how these music people do it, its a gift i suppose. Have you got any old furniture that you don't want? I'm not talking about old settee's or radiograms, but wooden chairs and tables. I'm currently hooked on recycling old stuff, while trying to perfect or discover my joinery skills. Some tools would be good i suppose, so i think i'll have to start to invest before i get too optomysterious. Yeah, thats right, i'm inventing my own words now...

don't objectify me, oh, go on then...

Why have i suddenly got a fetish for ballerinas? Its not one of those 'unhealthy' fetishes, don't worry! No, its just become apparent to me over the new year. Firstly, i blame the ballerina tv show broadcast on the BBC, over the christmas (incarceration) period i went through. It was a really nice drama thing, but obviously, very christmassy with the typical happy ending. That's sign 1, the 2nd is a tune i've been listening to over the last couple of months, 'Ballerina' by the best band in the world, GMPD is the name and all their songs are inspired brilliance. So that is now contributing to the evidence my rickety head is struggling to cope with. Sign 3...is there a sign 3? Yes, i just got it, its a myspace site. The site is full of wonderful photography of broken dolls, and other things, some of which resemble ballerina's, i knew it was something else. P.S. I can't believe i've written a post containing the word Ballerina 4 times! If you want to find the 'doll site'(its French in origin!) you will have to check out my page at myspace, so click the pink phone picture and it'll take you there. In the meantime, let's all hold hands and contact the living! :P

guess who? Its easy!

The thing with these portraits is that they all seem to be different in style. It just depends on the day, and if i'm feeling adventurous or not! Everything is an experiment as i always say, and some days i like to take the extreme option. It adds a bit of excitement to the dullness i like to think. I don't want to give titles to these drawings or tell people who they are modelled on, i'm going to let folks have a wild guess...thats what usually happens. I'm cold, but not feeling the cold if you know what i mean, have to check if the snow is back. Its been ok so far, its just that ruddy ice on the pavement that brings me down, literally! Ok, am going back to the drawings, until i fall asleep. I think i know what'll happen first. ZZZZzz

Recycle everything...

I've gone crazy...recycling and trying to find good ideas of how i can make things without throwing my rubbish, litter stuff away. So far i've started on a decorative bowl and i've made five money pouches! They are ace, i'm really pleased with them. I know i should get out more, but its a worthwhile pastime, as everyone around here seems to be so keen on wastage, and rubbish, and throw-away, not to mention the number of vehicles they have parked outside their houses! I'm going out now anyway, i'll probably get recycle-creative cold turkey jitters, but thats ok. I've got to learn how to control it and just say 'NO', well, just for today anyway! Byeeeeee.

Today has been a laugh...

I don't know why, but i've been completely giddy all day today. I think its because a bloke on the radio this morning claimed the current financial crisis was so bad, that it signals doom for us all and will go down in history as the worst economic catastrophe ever (he was made redundant this morning). Its not that statement that tickled me, but a guy who followed up his call with a comment that i think makes complete sense. He said "It was pointless feeling sorry for ourselves, redundancies, job losses and belt tightening should all be greeted in an air of optimism for the future". He continued "There are far more terrible things going on in the world, so get a grip and move on". I don't know what it was, but i became a lot more optimistic after this and did my daily dealings this morning while laughing and singing my head off! I was still laughing later on when i heard an unconnected Bernard Manning comment shortly after, that just completely doubled me up to the extent of me injuring myself! Don't ask, i'm still in a bit of pain!:)

its time for change, and its got to be big change!

I've realised i am pretty naff at virtually everything! It's taken a while to sink in, but now i've finally decided that this is the case. I'm not bad at time keeping and i'm ok at drawing, but don't expect me to remember your birthday, or what band is going to play here or there, or when. Navigation is another thing i'm poor at, because maps are pretty much lost on me. I don't drive cars or motorcycles as i fear i'd be a danger to the public, and the navigation aspect compounds this fact really. As i write this, i realise my spelling seems to have taken a wobbler as well, so i can add that to the list! I'm quite good at talking complete bilge though, i seem to have no problems in that department, and i'm sure there are queues of people who wood back me on that one. Spelling mistake i think you spotted, correct, but its only to remind me that i was quite good at woodwork and joinery at school. This seems to have been replaced by a talent for sculpting and modelling (not fashion). I don't know if i'm good at lying though, basically cos i don't like to do it. I think that is a plus, not sure? I don't seem to be as swift as i was a few years ago either... I expected this of course, but its really frustrating and helps me to do a worse job of things when you know it should have been completed last week. I'm no good at this blog thing as it happens, but as you can tell from this rant, i might be getting a little better at it. Sometimes i talk too quietly, and then there is my hearing... Have you got a spare hour? Oh yeah, Good luck Obama!

all this weather hurts my head!

I'm hoping its a bit nicer out there today, it was rough on Friday in a very deserted town, but the atmosphere improved very well. Same stuff with the pen really, but trying to change it. This French music is very good. I'll be doing a lot more listening, now if it was just a little louder...

all mixed up, it wants to take me with it...

thought i was getting better, but i've got a lot worse. Now i'm really fed up! One of my websites seems to have disappeared too, been searching and still can't find it. Finance is taking hold of people seriously now i think! Well, i'm going to risk it, it might be the end of me, but gotta do something, can't stay locked up much longer, how cold and dangerous can it be, really? I'll let you know from hospital, if it gets to that! :P Happy New Year

there goes sickness dying under my feet...

Well, i've recovered but i know lots more haven't. Its a bad one this year, but hopefully i've seen it off, for ages. Getting wound up by these drawings now, i'm sick of the same old format and style. Have to think of something else, i know what i want to be doing but trying to get there is the problem, its a lot easier written down on paper or in the head but miles away trying to put it into practice, but isn't that the way with most things, most of the time? I'll keep pluggin away, thats all i can do.

i'm sick of all this sickness...

Its that time of year again...Oh, i'm not talking about Christmas or 'holidays', i'm talking about going outdoors and getting ill from the weather! I've not stopped spluttering for 2 days now, and my throat is really sore, and its not from shouting at people to get Jeff Buckley's version of Hallelujah instead of that other pop type version, but to tell the truth i think we're all getting sick of the thing now. I'm feeling worse by the hour, but at least i haven't been hassling the pharmacy to give me all they've got in the line of drugs unlike some blokes, i'm harder than that! Dunno if my idea of Christmas gifts is gonna be acceptable this year, as i'm struggling to finish them and i have quite a few more to do, and i'm not even going to be wrapping them! What a half-wit...everything by half, oh yes. I'd better get back to the gifts thing now, bah, humbug. :)

is it just me or...

...is it getting really cold? I don't usually feel the cold that much, but it seems like a lot more hassle doing stuff when its slippery, and wet and chilly outside. Maybe i should invest in more adequate weatherproof clothing, and a scarf and gloves, but i think i'll end up looking more idiotic than normal, but at least i'd be a warmer idiot! I'll think about it if i manage to survive until after Christmas. New drawing here, and look, no really weird deformities or growths! Maybe that phase is over? Don't hold your breath, i'm sure i'll slip back into the gruesomes soon. Whatever you are doing, do it wrapped up, and hopefully not too idiotically...is that a word? Is now!

Its a bit different...

Still not full of words to share with anybody, regardless of the fact that i couldn't get a word in edgeways if it was left to some people! :) Have been painting, but its very minimal in style, just black and white portraits on canvas, a bit of a scan then adding the colour. its good to keep the originals in their original state, i am then able to experiment and print off as many as i like. Think i might try to spy some people when i'm out and do a few quick sketches, then i can take em back here and see if i can do anything constructive with them. Of course i couldn't possibly get the pictures to resemble or flatter the subject, that would be way too straightforward! I like to twist things, i'm a bit weird like that!

Who are you? Keep asking...

I still can't get my head around this guy purposely coming over to ask me who exactly 'I am'. I could see him racking his brain trying to grasp a name, he thought i was an actor, then proceeded to name that musician we all know! Tsk! Anyway, two messages in a night, what is my world coming to?:)

Get your act together!

I suppose this is why i have never ever kept a diary! I'm really lame when it comes to noting down in words, stuff that has happened to me. This is the nearest i have come to it, and it still takes a big effort to do it unfortunately. Now if it was just a picture thing, then i think there would be no problem. I'm going to try my best to keep this thing updated, i may have some news soon, but i suppose i'll need a few people to be made aware of this bloggy thing, don't think i told anybody about it yet!! As per usual the pictures are still flowing, with a few more colourful abstract creations to talk about. They take quite a time to do, but people seem to like them a lot.

I'm also thinking about what i am going to draw next, so hopefully it will be a bit different from the grotesque faces that i've gone mad with for the last year and a half! My next task this week is to add another comment to this blog before the end of the month, and to also phone a few people i know. I really have no excuses and the ones i do use are very poor indeed. greetings to all.