weird weekend, it isn't pleasing

i know the world is a strange place, but its just as strange, if not stranger on my own doorstep. After saying that though, there are some people who make the world easier to take and can bring a smile back to my face. Its usually the older, wiser folks who tend to have an inspiring effect on me. You know the scene, when you feel like an outsider in a strange place, and people are trying to work you out? It can be scary, and it was for me, but i was helped by a friendly person and things worked out fine. The madness of the evening though did continue for a while longer at another location. Younger folks this time, but i still don't know if i'm surprised by it or should've expected it. I'm still smiling, and the future should clarify things in this situation, surely it can't get more confusing, can it? I'm sorry i cannot say anymore, but this has to remain quiet. I know i am a pain, i really do know it!

right, i really must get my act together...

what i'm talking about is, me trying to be more productive with the things that are on my list. These things don't seem to be getting done and the list gets longer. Its not a list of household stuff, it's just arty things i always promised to try, but have not got around to producing. I know i'll be doing a bit of painting tonight, it was either that or 'Kloot', but i'm too tired to travel and i'm still in pain from my visit to the dentist, which was not as financially painful as i expected. In fact it wasn't painful at all, but still, i'm staying here to paint. I don't seem to be drawing anything that i use on a larger scale. It just seems, i potter about with it on the pc, add colour, then post it on the web. I did have a plan to draw stuff for larger pieces of work, but as yet hasn't materialised, might tonight tho! Maybe i can upload the big stuff as block drawings, then each one can be downloaded as block posters...i think that would be a terrible waste of good paper! I won't be doing that. :)

sometimes drawing gets me SO fed up...

...but not today! Yesterday was a bit of a bore, but i worked on the pics a little more, now i like them, i'm sure the feeling won't last for long. I've been trying to get to grips with Facebook, i know it'll be like crossing over to the bad side, but i think its inevitable really. Friends are there not here, plus the fact there are some really dodgy photos of me knocking about on those pages and i want to see them. I'm also trying to change my main web page, i've got this little animation thing i want to put on it(not cheesy honest) but its not too easy if i want to do it the cheap way, but i'm sure if i concentrate for more than the usual 5 minutes i'll get somewhere. This picture was drawn over a copy of the last picture, but i don't think it shows really. I'm starting to get the weird looks now you know? I'll tell you about it sometime.

this is the one...

...i finished on sunday. They are getting better but its funny how i can forget to do simple things that were really easy last month, its like i'm not concentrating enough!
Do you agree or disagree that we don't say 'thank you' enough? I've been trying to appreciate things a lot more, i'm trying to not concentrate on what i don't have, but to celebrate the things i do have. I've been doing this for ages, but now and again there is nothing like a good moan about stuff, because we all know how hard it is to stay hyper-positive day to day. Rant, rant... I know, i'm only writing this so it goes into my thick skull more easily, i'm hoping it helps me to visualise more positive things. I'll let you know this time next year if it works!